hanges.... i have specially used it for the situations... facts... at this point of time am here to write another post just coz of transitions... which is along with uncertainity... am not gonna talk about ki kya ho raha hai ,kya hona chahiye but in this post i wana speakout ki jo ho raha hai what does it make me feel...vese toa mei isski liknk kisi ko nahi bhej rahi hu , but agar koi pade toa yeh warning bhi pad le :MY WRITING IN THIS POST DOES NOT INTEND TO HURT ANY1 .. IF U FEEL SO I CNT BE APOLOGETIC.. .. and guys please the sequence of ur names has no relations with the importance criteria...
i have always bin a less friend girl.. never made many .. aur iss baat ke liye kai bar regret bhi feel kiya... but aaj jab dekhti hu toa soachti hu i have few and the r so precious..i think kaam hoke unhe special bana is a profitable deal... LOL was the only one i had here..physically present but vo angle bhi kuch alag hi nikal gaya... kuch unexpected... kuch unwanted .. but as i said transition ,its important coz now i feel the seriousness about my presence ,about my family people around connected with me .. i dont blame any1 for it , nor did i regret the things done.. am just doing it .. but frndhp is ... anyw
supi ... yaar tere saath mera time kaise aur kaha kaha , kin situations mei nikala... tere saath do life dekhi mene ..ek meri , ek teri... chahe kitni bhi communication chuta.. kitni bhi log aaye gai..indian goverment ki vajah se kitni hi baar hum months tak nahi baat kar paye... mil paye... par hume ek dusre ki jarurat kabhi kam nahi lagi... shayad tujhe lagi ho ..par mujhe nahi.. tu durr gai ,mei yahi thi.. tu pass aai, mei yahi ... mei mushquilo mei hu ..tu wahi hai... mei khush rahungi ...tu wahi hongi..
hum inn cheezo mei kaafi persistent hai.. hehe....
log ya toa support karte hai ya nahi karte .. but kuch hi log khuko uss situation mei khud ko rakh ke soachte hai..
another frnd jisne saath diya tapas... aajkal kaafi khud hi loaded hai .. few un-wanted complication.. hamari tunning ko toa effect nahi karega yeh sab but timely kuch slowness aagai hai .. i cnt blame him too ..but i cnt blame anyway vese... theek hai another transition... :P...
infact jo bhi cheezei chal rahi hai they all r such ki kisi ko bhi blame karne mei am helpless... i dnt want to ..dont have too... and thats what is killing me...
its easier when things cud be blamed on sm1... hehe...
transition is somthing un avoidable.. unwanted...but very much between us...among us... i feel helpless at times.. confused ... guilty ... and thni feel small... i feel common... i feel responsible.. logical.. different , hurtful.. and the list can go on ... all this coz of transitions... changes....
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
beloved 2009....
with so many things happening around, ending 2009 in this manner was never expected .. i had this long awaited Holiday of mine in the ending days of 2009... i saw the most awesome movie of the year in those ending days.. i felt the most terrible insecurity about my professional life in those ending days... . . .
all these things which i felt in those days, and feeling still continues in some matters, i realised was always there ... along ,whole year.. but as in scientific words " human nature " gave me freedom to ignore them and handle them when it comes...
the movie surely tells u to not o worry for life ahead but enjoy the presence ... heelllllooooo....rembr its a movie.. and the very reason people are crazy about it , coz somehwhere down the line .. they always have and still do want ,there life with the tag...: future se kya darna , aaj ko enjoy karo . but we cnt........ oki i think that's more of psychological talks....
with NO SIGNAL line on my phone for 4 days.... i realised the need of mine for the wireless... but the very 1.5 days latter , it clicked , it was not those wireless company connection i was missing , but the people with whom they connect me..effortlessly...
and than again a complicated feeling : i like to miss them , and being missed ! yes .. yes i do ! their voice when i gave them a call the moment i got my phone saying "IDEA" , was very awesome....
i loved those snowy nights , -14 degree temperature survival techs, flow of adrenaline in our head coz of some nasty people... bin the most big eye girl among the monks..[ i think they enjoyed watching me more thn i do ..they envy me for my eyes.. ] but the moment of those 5 mint of call from inside the plane ,resting on an airport on west Bengal.. gave me all the contentment needed...
i dont like coming back here... as for now... am being greedy i know... but i really wana have more.. although LOL tells me , more of absence makes u get forgotten too... he always put up lines to scare me , it never works ...!
22 jan , i hope my life sees a new turn after that... am getting into professional shoes now... n as for now i feel ... they r not my size .! but i will get one ,soner or latter , of my size, my choice and fitting... :P
so in the middle of getting use to write 2010 , feel the professional sense , fighting for attention... i hear by announce 2009 as another best year for me... and welcome 2010 with more adventure in life.... my skeptical mind portion says it this way -
Cheers to a New Year and another chance for us to get it right....!! :))
all these things which i felt in those days, and feeling still continues in some matters, i realised was always there ... along ,whole year.. but as in scientific words " human nature " gave me freedom to ignore them and handle them when it comes...
the movie surely tells u to not o worry for life ahead but enjoy the presence ... heelllllooooo....rembr its a movie.. and the very reason people are crazy about it , coz somehwhere down the line .. they always have and still do want ,there life with the tag...: future se kya darna , aaj ko enjoy karo . but we cnt........ oki i think that's more of psychological talks....
with NO SIGNAL line on my phone for 4 days.... i realised the need of mine for the wireless... but the very 1.5 days latter , it clicked , it was not those wireless company connection i was missing , but the people with whom they connect me..effortlessly...
and than again a complicated feeling : i like to miss them , and being missed ! yes .. yes i do ! their voice when i gave them a call the moment i got my phone saying "IDEA" , was very awesome....
i loved those snowy nights , -14 degree temperature survival techs, flow of adrenaline in our head coz of some nasty people... bin the most big eye girl among the monks..[ i think they enjoyed watching me more thn i do ..they envy me for my eyes.. ] but the moment of those 5 mint of call from inside the plane ,resting on an airport on west Bengal.. gave me all the contentment needed...
i dont like coming back here... as for now... am being greedy i know... but i really wana have more.. although LOL tells me , more of absence makes u get forgotten too... he always put up lines to scare me , it never works ...!
22 jan , i hope my life sees a new turn after that... am getting into professional shoes now... n as for now i feel ... they r not my size .! but i will get one ,soner or latter , of my size, my choice and fitting... :P
so in the middle of getting use to write 2010 , feel the professional sense , fighting for attention... i hear by announce 2009 as another best year for me... and welcome 2010 with more adventure in life.... my skeptical mind portion says it this way -
Cheers to a New Year and another chance for us to get it right....!! :))
Thursday, December 17, 2009
LADAKA HEERA HAI HEERA ........!
the lines which is bin used in thousands of hindi movies of late nintees , but it became talk of the town by the movie sholay ... as u all know it ! but what lead me TO pick up this line to write are again people in my life !
this line was used by my best friend, the same i have mentioned in my last blog , for LOL...
i was in bad mood, for few things that particular day , which also included my kind-off -fight with my LOL.....
so this best frnd of mine was trying to defend LOL... , and he came up with this line "arre am teeling u na , LADAKA HEERA HAI HEERA....." , i was there, reading it .... smiling , bit amused as i did not expect this was coming from him for
him ! but anyways that was the time when this line was recalled by my mind and still remain as one of those lines which i wud like to use , as n when i get the chance to... !
... my best friend was right , ladaka hai to heera ..and i have this diamond in my life ,beautifully studded....shining beautifully.!!!!!
the second time when this line was used effectively ,was when this best friend was in a mess.situational mess.... he was assured at that point of time that he is useless and not doing anygud to his life .. although
the reasons where different ...oki let me speak something about this point as i always wanted to tell this thought to my friends , before i forget ...
all these prestigious institues of india, which are knowned to give best mind in india ,infact nowdays best stories to youths and even a ready to make scripts to few film makers... and am sure hell lot of ideas to boys and girls
to manage their love life .. i mean these institues should also claim to give the most entertaining stories of all times ! education and entertainment .... y the hell dont they work more on knowing there student and there mind... y dont they show their
high funda qualification and ability to make their mind clam down and assure them in some way , so that they can make their way easily .... anyww...
toa back to my 2nd use of "ladaka heera hai heera ...., his mind made him think , actually believe that he is screwing his life up , by not getting jobs and nothing good happening with him coz he is not able to prove things , now
knowing him from so long , and his mental strength ... initially i had to make him realise ki bosss, yeh sab baatei iss coz of ur situations and not u { infact coz of your college , god ,am speaking so much about these technical institutes,
... hey hey but i love them .. most of my cousin and my best friend is from it }.... anyw , toa after bin able to cool him down bit { yes i can do that ... :) }, i cud not resist to tell him what i felt about him , n the line was this....
ki hey i know u ... i know my best friend ...LADAKA HEERA HAI HEERA ...... appropriately used !!
another aspect of using this line cud be ,using it with motherly feeling ..... an apparently my mother use it many times for my dada , with all her love and teasing and to forget proud ...! vese the feeling is mutual..... though am younger to him , but with all due respect
to him . i too wana use it for him " ladaka heera hai heera ......"
infact as am writing this post , i realised this line is used far many times in my life .and for all my best people in life !
i think heera , is a very suitable word to be used for the persons u really feel so strongly about ! it signify all aspects of a person's character....
as in
uncut or beautifully cut diamond representing persons who have been beautifully bin embbeded characters and value.... ,
properly studded people,who has placed themselves in the right position , at right time and with all due shine in them....,
hey been a girl i can go on and on ,on diamonds..... :P !
all the pieces of diamond which are embedded in my life jewellery are the most precious one ! and as all girls usually say ,
" I LOVE DIAMONDS too !!!!!!!
the lines which is bin used in thousands of hindi movies of late nintees , but it became talk of the town by the movie sholay ... as u all know it ! but what lead me TO pick up this line to write are again people in my life !
this line was used by my best friend, the same i have mentioned in my last blog , for LOL...
i was in bad mood, for few things that particular day , which also included my kind-off -fight with my LOL.....
so this best frnd of mine was trying to defend LOL... , and he came up with this line "arre am teeling u na , LADAKA HEERA HAI HEERA....." , i was there, reading it .... smiling , bit amused as i did not expect this was coming from him for
him ! but anyways that was the time when this line was recalled by my mind and still remain as one of those lines which i wud like to use , as n when i get the chance to... !
... my best friend was right , ladaka hai to heera ..and i have this diamond in my life ,beautifully studded....shining beautifully.!!!!!
the second time when this line was used effectively ,was when this best friend was in a mess.situational mess.... he was assured at that point of time that he is useless and not doing anygud to his life .. although
the reasons where different ...oki let me speak something about this point as i always wanted to tell this thought to my friends , before i forget ...
all these prestigious institues of india, which are knowned to give best mind in india ,infact nowdays best stories to youths and even a ready to make scripts to few film makers... and am sure hell lot of ideas to boys and girls
to manage their love life .. i mean these institues should also claim to give the most entertaining stories of all times ! education and entertainment .... y the hell dont they work more on knowing there student and there mind... y dont they show their
high funda qualification and ability to make their mind clam down and assure them in some way , so that they can make their way easily .... anyww...
toa back to my 2nd use of "ladaka heera hai heera ...., his mind made him think , actually believe that he is screwing his life up , by not getting jobs and nothing good happening with him coz he is not able to prove things , now
knowing him from so long , and his mental strength ... initially i had to make him realise ki bosss, yeh sab baatei iss coz of ur situations and not u { infact coz of your college , god ,am speaking so much about these technical institutes,
... hey hey but i love them .. most of my cousin and my best friend is from it }.... anyw , toa after bin able to cool him down bit { yes i can do that ... :) }, i cud not resist to tell him what i felt about him , n the line was this....
ki hey i know u ... i know my best friend ...LADAKA HEERA HAI HEERA ...... appropriately used !!
another aspect of using this line cud be ,using it with motherly feeling ..... an apparently my mother use it many times for my dada , with all her love and teasing and to forget proud ...! vese the feeling is mutual..... though am younger to him , but with all due respect
to him . i too wana use it for him " ladaka heera hai heera ......"
infact as am writing this post , i realised this line is used far many times in my life .and for all my best people in life !
i think heera , is a very suitable word to be used for the persons u really feel so strongly about ! it signify all aspects of a person's character....
as in
uncut or beautifully cut diamond representing persons who have been beautifully bin embbeded characters and value.... ,
properly studded people,who has placed themselves in the right position , at right time and with all due shine in them....,
hey been a girl i can go on and on ,on diamonds..... :P !
all the pieces of diamond which are embedded in my life jewellery are the most precious one ! and as all girls usually say ,
" I LOVE DIAMONDS too !!!!!!!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
my first words.....
In the evening, after a movie, at home, at the usual time when I meet my best friend online, I just threw a random question at him, "Do you blog?” Even after having known him for 3 long years, I did not know he did! Okay.... that was bad! But anyway...
My first blog, and as usual I don’t know what to write. I think i never had the aptitude for writing and all.
But still I wanted to write, this one for my best friend! He is screwed up right now, for he had all those companies and placements making him go out of his mind, big time alone n all.... but still trying to make his way out of it. I am happy for him to be trying to do so, at the same time feeling bad because he has to go through it all. I mean, I never would have guessed that a dual-degree holder from the most prestigious college of India could suffer so badly! But I really hope he gets through all this.. my bestest buddy ! coz of him am veeru !i want him to have his gudtimes soon.....
Best friend # 2 : She is the girl I never ever understood, though I don’t think anyone ever has. Not more than me, at least. Still... she is having her best time personally. She is lost in love, completely... and that’s good because it’s has been a long time for her… she never felt that! But as of now, she is completely in love! And I will be wrong if I say I don’t miss her and that I am completely happy about the transformation... I am not. She was different than what she is now.i miss her miss callls, i miss her taking out time specially to talk to me , i miss her getting frustrated on me ......... But what she is now is good for her! Screw that guy... oh Rohit!
But anyway these 2 people are not just important for me but my necessity to be happy, to be online, to be blogging, to have this urge to write...
Love you guys!
My first blog, and as usual I don’t know what to write. I think i never had the aptitude for writing and all.
But still I wanted to write, this one for my best friend! He is screwed up right now, for he had all those companies and placements making him go out of his mind, big time alone n all.... but still trying to make his way out of it. I am happy for him to be trying to do so, at the same time feeling bad because he has to go through it all. I mean, I never would have guessed that a dual-degree holder from the most prestigious college of India could suffer so badly! But I really hope he gets through all this.. my bestest buddy ! coz of him am veeru !i want him to have his gudtimes soon.....
Best friend # 2 : She is the girl I never ever understood, though I don’t think anyone ever has. Not more than me, at least. Still... she is having her best time personally. She is lost in love, completely... and that’s good because it’s has been a long time for her… she never felt that! But as of now, she is completely in love! And I will be wrong if I say I don’t miss her and that I am completely happy about the transformation... I am not. She was different than what she is now.i miss her miss callls, i miss her taking out time specially to talk to me , i miss her getting frustrated on me ......... But what she is now is good for her! Screw that guy... oh Rohit!
But anyway these 2 people are not just important for me but my necessity to be happy, to be online, to be blogging, to have this urge to write...
Love you guys!
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