beloved 2009....

with so many things happening around, ending 2009 in this manner was never expected .. i had this long awaited Holiday of mine in the ending days of 2009... i saw the most awesome movie of the year in those ending days.. i felt the most terrible insecurity about my professional life in those ending days... . . .
all these things which i felt in those days, and feeling still continues in some matters, i realised was always there ... along ,whole year.. but as in scientific words " human nature " gave me freedom to ignore them and handle them when it comes...
the movie surely tells u to not o worry for life ahead but enjoy the presence ... heelllllooooo....rembr its a movie.. and the very reason people are crazy about it , coz somehwhere down the line .. they always have and still do want ,there life with the tag...: future se kya darna , aaj ko enjoy karo . but we cnt........ oki i think that's more of psychological talks....

with NO SIGNAL line on my phone for 4 days.... i realised the need of mine for the wireless... but the very 1.5 days latter , it clicked , it was not those wireless company connection i was missing , but the people with whom they connect me..effortlessly...
and than again a complicated feeling : i like to miss them , and being missed ! yes .. yes i do ! their voice when i gave them a call the moment i got my phone saying "IDEA" , was very awesome....
i loved those snowy nights , -14 degree temperature survival techs, flow of adrenaline in our head coz of some nasty people... bin the most big eye girl among the monks..[ i think they enjoyed watching me more thn i do ..they envy me for my eyes.. ] but the moment of those 5 mint of call from inside the plane ,resting on an airport on west Bengal.. gave me all the contentment needed...
i dont like coming back here... as for now... am being greedy i know... but i really wana have more.. although LOL tells me , more of absence makes u get forgotten too... he always put up lines to scare me , it never works ...!
22 jan , i hope my life sees a new turn after that... am getting into professional shoes now... n as for now i feel ... they r not my size .! but i will get one ,soner or latter , of my size, my choice and fitting... :P
so in the middle of getting use to write 2010 , feel the professional sense , fighting for attention... i hear by announce 2009 as another best year for me... and welcome 2010 with more adventure in life.... my skeptical mind portion says it this way -

Cheers to a New Year and another chance for us to get it right....!! :))