transition...

hanges.... i have specially used it for the situations... facts... at this point of time am here to write another post just coz of transitions... which is along with uncertainity... am not gonna talk about ki kya ho raha hai ,kya hona chahiye but in this post i wana speakout ki jo ho raha hai what does it make me feel...vese toa mei isski liknk kisi ko nahi bhej rahi hu , but agar koi pade toa yeh warning bhi pad le :MY WRITING IN THIS POST DOES NOT INTEND TO HURT ANY1 .. IF U FEEL SO I CNT BE APOLOGETIC.. .. and guys please the sequence of ur names has no relations with the importance criteria...
i have always bin a less friend girl.. never made many .. aur iss baat ke liye kai bar regret bhi feel kiya... but aaj jab dekhti hu toa soachti hu i have few and the r so precious..i think kaam hoke unhe special bana is a profitable deal... LOL was the only one i had here..physically present but vo angle bhi kuch alag hi nikal gaya... kuch unexpected... kuch unwanted .. but as i said transition ,its important coz now i feel the seriousness about my presence ,about my family people around connected with me .. i dont blame any1 for it , nor did i regret the things done.. am just doing it .. but frndhp is ... anyw
supi ... yaar tere saath mera time kaise aur kaha kaha , kin situations mei nikala... tere saath do life dekhi mene ..ek meri , ek teri... chahe kitni bhi communication chuta.. kitni bhi log aaye gai..indian goverment ki vajah se kitni hi baar hum months tak nahi baat kar paye... mil paye... par hume ek dusre ki jarurat kabhi kam nahi lagi... shayad tujhe lagi ho ..par mujhe nahi.. tu durr gai ,mei yahi thi.. tu pass aai, mei yahi ... mei mushquilo mei hu ..tu wahi hai... mei khush rahungi ...tu wahi hongi..
hum inn cheezo mei kaafi persistent hai.. hehe....

log ya toa support karte hai ya nahi karte .. but kuch hi log khuko uss situation mei khud ko rakh ke soachte hai..

another frnd jisne saath diya tapas... aajkal kaafi khud hi loaded hai .. few un-wanted complication.. hamari tunning ko toa effect nahi karega yeh sab but timely kuch slowness aagai hai .. i cnt blame him too ..but i cnt blame anyway vese... theek hai another transition... :P...
infact jo bhi cheezei chal rahi hai they all r such ki kisi ko bhi blame karne mei am helpless... i dnt want to ..dont have too... and thats what is killing me...
its easier when things cud be blamed on sm1... hehe...
transition is somthing un avoidable.. unwanted...but very much between us...among us... i feel helpless at times.. confused ... guilty ... and thni feel small... i feel common... i feel responsible.. logical.. different , hurtful.. and the list can go on ... all this coz of transitions... changes....